What is really going on?

Hey everyone, how have you all been? I hope truly well. I know that I haven't been blogging and I am going to be totally honest on why.

We are all human and have feelings. True feelings. People can hurt you without even knowingly doing so. Even though on the outside I look tough, like I have it all together I don't. But, again I am human and I cant always have it together. Anyways if you read my blogs daily then you probably noticed after my "You are a mother" blog I kind of slowed down. Well I got way into my feelings. I spent a lot of time with that blog. Reading emails, Facebook messages and texts in order to make it what it was. I was thrilled about it. Excited to do something for you all, my readers.

I spent all night setting it up so that in the morning it would post and everyone would see how special we women are. Well on blogger you can see how many actually read your blogs and where they are at, like what state. I noticed that the views weren't as good as they usually are. People weren't reading the blog. I noticed that most people were reading the "graduation, a loss and a new beginning". I didn't understand. It was just hard for me to know I did it for you, and you weren't reading.

I know those of you that did because you let me know personally how you felt. I am sure their were a few that read it and just didn't say anything, but when you comment and or share it lets me know I am writing and you all are enjoying it.

So yes I got in my feelings and that is okay because I am "human". I just really enjoy your feed back. I love you all genuinely for reading my blogs. I know everyone has busy schedules and for you to take even 5  minuets away to read really makes me feel good.

I love you all for reading. I am back and better than ever. So blogs will be back up everyday. Please feel free to let me know some topics that you might want to hear about.

The best part of my day!!!

The best part of my day is night. Giving all my kids their baths and then choosing the stories that we are going to read for the night. Usually the girls choose a chapter book because they feel older. Anything pleases them at this age. Currently we are reading the Junie B books which are kind of amusing if you ask me.

After the girls have had their books or book read it is milk time and good night (hopefully). Going to sleep is not their favorite part of the day. That will change one day though. For now its like pulling teeth. We say our prayers together and then I hope that they will be quite enough for me to get little man to sleep.

Once I am finished with them, Logan gets his special bath then lotion time. One thing I can say is after a baby has had a bath if you spend time massaging them with a calming lotion, it makes going to bed a lot faster. Just a little tip. Anyways after getting him dressed me and him choose three kid (baby) books (yes I said, me and him). The little ones that are hard pages.

I love seeing his eyes open up so wide when we are reading. I mean this little boy become fixated with the story. So cute I tell you. We either finish bed time with "I love you, goodnight" (which I just picked up and am so in love with) or "Love you forever" (my all time favorite).

Then night light with moving pictures and music is on. I say a prayer with him and rock him back and fourth till he is out. It melts my heart watching my kids sleep. The best feeling in the world is knowing "they are mine, all mine".

It is a reward everyday to me watching them rest so peacefully. Being a mother is such a hard job. One that most get no credit for, nor do we ask for it. Just seeing them in their beds tucked in under the covers lets me know "Kayleigh, you are doing a great job". It is nice to hear those words from time to time, but as long as my kids are alive and healthy I feel accomplished.

I am a blessed women and if all else fails in my life, at least I have my children. They will always love me despite my flaws. I am grateful for them.