Just do it!!!

I decided that the most important part of this journey is remembering that it is not going to happen over night. If I don't have to work hard for it then I  wont appreciate it. That's where my mind is. Think about it.... When you find out that your pregnant, it would be nice to have that baby in your hands right then and there, but realistically if you did it would be a miscarriage not a healthy baby. God has us wait 40 weeks maybe a little sooner but usually around 40 weeks to meet that beautiful blessing. So that the moment that we meet them we totally appreciate them.

I am not giving up at all. I am so excited to work and to see the results. I know that I might not see them for a while, but mentally i am okay with that.

One thing that is in the back of my mind is do I really set a goal weight, or just work for feeling good about myself when I look in the mirror? I've never been a girl who is about numbers. I just want to love the women I am through and through. I decided that this is my time to shine. I'm ready for this journey.

This is the dress that I purchased at Forever 21. I can wait
to get into this!!!

So I went to the mall yesterday and I've always loved Forever 21 clothes but I hate that I have to buy a size 2x in order to actually fit them. I did something that I would have never done before. I took a leap of faith and purchased a dress that I aspire to fit in by February 24, 2015. My anniversary. The size is large which would be my pre-pregnancy size before all of my kids.

I am the type that if I don't have a set date then I might fall off. I have a goal and I am excited to reach it. Today is September 22,2014 which means that I have 5 months and 2 days to get there. I am very optimistic. I believe in myself and that is the most important thing ever.

I didn't workout over the weekend. I cant even begin to front like I did. So I am counting today as day 1, week 1. I am fine with that. I hope that my journey will help someone else out. I love you all for reading.

Here goes nothing. Lets get it in!!!

Fit Journey

Day 2 Done!!!

Got it in today
I did my best by the way
Starting out I felt like I was struggling with it
But i pulled through and didn't call it quits
This journey is a new step for me
Eating clean more frequently
I'm so used to doing as I please
I forget the important things
Like health and longevity
in life that is....
I want to be able to run and play with my kids
At the park at the beach
anywhere that suits their needs
It is my goal to lose weight and get fit
I wont allow myself to lay down and rot in a pit
You will see me everyday giving it my all
Girl Imma look fly when I walk through the mall
No one can bring my down or make me stop
I am the only one and I'm climbing to the top
Just give me a few months to get where I want be
You want to join in this journey
Come tag along with me
Here goes nothing
or maybe here goes everything
You will never know unless you try
I'm ready, fat its time to go BYE BYE....

I tried to do a little something different today with my blog. I hope that you all enjoyed it.
I love you for reading...
See you tomorrow!!!

This journey

Why continue to put off getting fit? Laziness, no determination, no will power. There are so many

Fresh after my T-25 workout!!!

reasons. I am not willing to continue on this path of feeling and looking horrible. I have others that depend on me everyday. If I am not at my best how can I help them to be their best? It cant be done.

I am starting my journey starting today. 09/18/2014. Its my time to get in the best shape of my life. I am committing myself to a fitness challenge with my favorite You Tuber GabeandBabeTV. Starting today I restarted T-25 and this time I am fully committed to the program and my well being.

I don't know exactly what each day is going to bring, but I am not giving up on "ME". As a person that battles every day with anxiety and panic attacks I've learned working out helps for me. I'm not saying that it is going to be easy at all, but I do know that the only person that can stop me is me. Joining Gabe and many other strong beautiful women is definitely a  plus for me. I need an accountability group that will make sure I don't fall off.

If any of you are looking for motivation and need that extra push I recommend you checking out Gabe's journey. It has made me look at life much different. If she can get it in we all can too. She is a full time mom and full time you tuber, not to mention a full time amazing wife. We can all learn a lot from her and her beautiful family.

After Logan!!!

Today is the day, and I am excited. This is a journey not only for me, but my wonderful husband is doing it too. I am very excited for our health.  Shawn has been having a lot of high blood pressure issues and I alot of dizziness associated with stomach issues. It is time to fell better and look better.

Here it goes everyone. 1...2...3... Blast off!!! I love you all for reading.

I am being realistic in my goals. This round of T-25 I am not going to look for just numbers. I want to feel good and look good. Not based on a set number.

Starting weight:207 pds
Goal:175
Time Frame:As long as it takes. I am not giving up

Check out Gabes journey!!!
http://youtu.be/hUWwahcstXE?list=PL4zuarGuHzGJKAoo_nvv9nG1Tk2Pi1-EJ

I love it

The joys of being the mother to 3 beautiful children are really starting to show now. It amazes me how when I sit here in front of my computer all i can do is pour my heart out at how amazing these kids are. Yes they may act out at times, but they are kids. MY KIDS..

Yesterday as me and Riri were doing her homework, she asked "mom can we go to the playground"? I said "Yes". She reached over to grab me and gave me a big hug and whispered "you are the best mom ever"!!! How my heart just melted. I was having a bad day because i wanted to go to California but didn't want to drive by myself with 3 kids. So i could not go. I wanted to surprise my little cousin for her baby shower., but it is a fail. My daughters were so sad Sariah even started to cry about it. I felt horrible. When she said I was the best mom ever, it made it all better.

Putting Logan down for his naps are starting to get hard. He is really starting to fight me on laying down (unless he is just so worn out he falls asleep on his own). Well, the one thing that actually works to get him to sleep.... is me singing. Yes, i said singing (and i cant even sing, lol). I am not sure if it is the fact that i sing so bad that knocks him out, or if it is the fact he just likes his mommy's voice. Whichever it is, he absolutely loves it. He is out like a light with in seconds. It is the cutest thing ever.

So the other day on Tuesday me and my mom went to K-Mart with Kamille and Logan because Sariah was at school. K-mart always seems to carry the "whats in style now", for little kids. My girls are obsessed with two things. Sofia Grace and Rosie and American Girl Dolls. Well long and behold the moment that we walked in to the store there was dresses (which are Kamilles favorite). She picked it up and noticed it was a "Sofia Grace and Rosie dress, she immediately asked if she could get it. I said "no" because she has one to many dresses already. So we come home and the more i think about it, I feel like she deserves to have it because Sariah got so many new clothes and Kamille didn't. So i told Shawn about the dress and he said just get it for her if you want. So the next day we go and take her to K-Mart, she was so excited you should have seen her light up like a glow worm. She said "mom, i love it and you are the best". Ahhh my kids really know how to make me feel all warm inside.

I am so lucky to have these three beautiful amazing children, I get to call "MINE"!!!

She is growing!!!

Finally I have sometime to just sit down at my computer and put my thoughts in it. I have been so busy with Sariah starting school and adjusting to her not being her. It has been crazy, but I think that I got it all down packed now.

I cant believe how fast time has gone. My oldest is already in first grade and I so feel like I just had her. Her birthday is in less than two weeks and I don't know where the time has gone too. As I sit back and think about the moment I found out that I was pregnant with her, I remember being scared and nervous, while feeling joy and excitement. I was scared because 5 months prior I had just lost a baby. I didn't know if anything was going to happen during my pregnancy with her. Although I gained more than I would have liked to with her she was by far the easiest pregnancy.

August 25, 2014 was her first day of First grade, as we walked to school I felt those same feelings all over again (scared and nervous, while feeling joy and excitement). Weird, but so real. I look at her now and thank God for this little one. When I am not feeling well about myself (confidence) she always finds a way to let me know that she loves me and thinks that I am beautiful no matter what. How lucky am I?

My baby isn't a baby anymore, but she will always be "my baby". I am grateful for her attitude about life, school, friends and family. For only being 5 she is very smart. She notices everything around her (so i have to be careful with what i say because she totally gets it). It has its positive and negative sides to it. LOL!!!

Well She is now becoming a big girl totally not a little toddler girl. Who was I to think that she was going to stay a little innocent girl that is totally oblivious to life? Crazy. I have a smart, beautiful, talented princess on my hands.

I love you Sariah. You are already doing well in first grade. Mommy and daddy are very thankful that God decided to give you to us.

I love you for reading. Thanks again.

First grade here we come!!!

I am so excited my oldest baby girl is going to first grade. Time sure is flying by, before I know it she will be applying to colleges and wanting to leave home. I don't even want to think about that. We have been getting ready and preparing ourselves for this day.

Do you buy your kids a new backpack every year? New clothes, and shoes? It is something that I think is a must. I buy Sariah two backpacks because she is still rough,  and with just one it wouldn't work. I am teaching her how to be careful with her stuff, but it is a work in progress.

This year is special because she is going to be at a new school in a new area, and I want her to feel safe. I want her to be happy and look forward to what is in store for her. First grade is when they really take flight and start to really step into their own. I am so excited.

We have 8 days left and we are 100% ready for the day. She has clothes, shoes, school supplies and a whole lot of accessories. I was hoping that her school was going to be uniform but unfortunately it isn't. So of course you have to spend a little more on their outfits. 

I made sure to get things on sale. This year I did it a little different I allowed her to choose the items that we bought. It so exciting to see her excited about getting ready. I don't remember being into what I was wearing in first grade, but times are definitely changing.

So I am praying for her protection from the ignorance of the world. People that think negatively about life and don't want anything better for those around them. I am asking that Lord you keep your angels around her at all times and allow her to be the best her she can be. I thank you in advance for her placement and her education. First grade her we come. 

Next blog I will post everything we bought. From where as well...

I love you for reading. Talk to you tomorrow!!!

What is really going on?

Hey everyone, how have you all been? I hope truly well. I know that I haven't been blogging and I am going to be totally honest on why.

We are all human and have feelings. True feelings. People can hurt you without even knowingly doing so. Even though on the outside I look tough, like I have it all together I don't. But, again I am human and I cant always have it together. Anyways if you read my blogs daily then you probably noticed after my "You are a mother" blog I kind of slowed down. Well I got way into my feelings. I spent a lot of time with that blog. Reading emails, Facebook messages and texts in order to make it what it was. I was thrilled about it. Excited to do something for you all, my readers.

I spent all night setting it up so that in the morning it would post and everyone would see how special we women are. Well on blogger you can see how many actually read your blogs and where they are at, like what state. I noticed that the views weren't as good as they usually are. People weren't reading the blog. I noticed that most people were reading the "graduation, a loss and a new beginning". I didn't understand. It was just hard for me to know I did it for you, and you weren't reading.

I know those of you that did because you let me know personally how you felt. I am sure their were a few that read it and just didn't say anything, but when you comment and or share it lets me know I am writing and you all are enjoying it.

So yes I got in my feelings and that is okay because I am "human". I just really enjoy your feed back. I love you all genuinely for reading my blogs. I know everyone has busy schedules and for you to take even 5  minuets away to read really makes me feel good.

I love you all for reading. I am back and better than ever. So blogs will be back up everyday. Please feel free to let me know some topics that you might want to hear about.