Finally, Back again!!!

I am so excited to be back!!!

That moment that you sit back and say to yourself " Why am I wasting time and not doing the things that I love?"... I started this blog because I had things to say and I wanted to be able to help other moms and or women in general. What is going on Kay?

Well, everyone if anyone even cares "I AM BACK!!!".

I have been wondering when I would get the strength to get back at it and now I feel great. It has been so long..... I guess I should catch everyone up on what has been going on...

For one I am no longer a stay at home mom anymore ( I actually do miss it) this momma is a working...LOL. My oldest is almost finished with first grade and has maintained A/B Honors all year long (proud mommy moment). My second daughter is getting anxious for kinder next year, she even asked "Do I start tomorrow?" to the lady in the office, and my baby boy is already 1 and walking around getting into everything. I tell you I don't know where the time has gone. Next thing I know they are going to be asking "Mom, can I go out with my friends?", and I will be home crying my eyes out because my home is empty...

I tell you hold onto them and enjoy every moment you have with them. They are so special and precious to me. I am truly a blessed women.

I for one am looking forward to an amazing summer. With the trials and tribulations that I have experienced in 2014/2015 thus far, I am grateful I haven't jumped of the ledge (metaphorically speaking people). Well with that being said I just summed up very briefly what has been going on in our lives and I cant wait to get back into the world of blogging. I love it very much and cant wait to poor my heart back into it....

My day

Today was a pretty laid back day for the most part. Not really much to do. I took the girls out to the pool for a while. It was fun. We had the whole thing to ourselves. I wasn't mad at that. Little man didn't get in, he just watched from the side lines with his daddy. Sariah and Kamille are doing so well in the pool. They took off their life vests to show me that they are able to swim without them. My girls are growing up so fast. I feel like just yesterday they were being born. These are the moments that you have to hold onto, because before you know it they are going to be off to college and out of your house.

After spending time in the pool, we got cleaned up and headed out to do some grocery shopping. We spent about an hour or so getting food for the week and standing in line for what always seems like a life time at food 4 less. I am not sure why they cant hire people that know what they are doing. It so frustrates me. Now for the fun part putting everything away. I have to be honest downsizing so that we can save money to buy our house can make a girl go crazy.

Anyways, after doing so I noticed that I didn't have anymore trash bags. Well wait I did have one and I was holding onto it with my life. Okay just kidding. Seriously though. I really didn't want to leave, but my big girl Sariah said that she would go with me. So out again we went. Heading to our favorite store "Target". Well one of them anyways. On the way Sariah wanted to listen to music. Can anyone guess what we put in and turned all the way up?????

If you guessed Tamar then ding, ding, ding you won a trip to "getcha life"... and honey boo me and Riri got ours. I am almost sure everyone next to us and or driving past thought we were crazy. We didn't care because we were enjoying ourselves and having fun. This is what I live for. Seeing my kids happy and all from the little things in life.

I came home to find that my little man was already for bed, so it was mommy time. I put him to sleep pretty much every night. One thing that I just started doing, is reading him his own books at night because I notice that he actually enjoys it. Trust me I get he is only 4 months (in 6 more mins. as I am writing this) but you should see his eyes glow and get big, his feet start to move and he laughs. I am so in love. After reading him 3 books off my favorites list, I held him close and told him "Mommy loves you". I looked down to see that he had already fell fast asleep. In my arms he was safe and warm.

I got the girls ready for bed, then we cleaned their room. Now book time for them. Tonight it was a "Junie B" Book, which they love. Something about chapter books make them feel like big girls. So cute. Now it is time for me and my honeys guilty pleasure "love and hip hop". Nighty night. Until tomorrow.

"BOOM"!!!

Have you ever wondered "where would I be if I didn't have my kids"? I know it is something that

always ran across my mind. Growing up and hanging out with the wrong type of people always had me second guessing everything that ever happened to me. I never knew if the decisions that I was making were the right ones. I still can vividly remember one night hanging out with some friends. I was so stupid to have got in the car because the driver was going off crazy because he had been drinking, but I didn't want to be left alone. So I got in and we drove maybe 10 minutes away  (which is far when the driver is irate and drunk). He wanted to shoot someone. I for the life of me don't know why, but the fact I was there had me terrified. When we got to are location we all exited the car. My friends were telling the driver put your gun away. You aren't going to shoot anyone. Just put it on safety and lets go.  At first he was against putting the gun away trying to pick a fight with the people around the neighborhood. Now if your from the East side of Long Beach you know fighting and guns are the norm. Sad but true.

At this point we are about to walk in an apartment complex so they told him again "put the gun on safety". As he pulled the gun out all we heard was "BOOM", next thing I knew my forehead was bleeding and I didn't know why. I knew hadn't been shot, but still I didn't understand why I had blood dripping down my face. When we got in the apartment, my ears were still ringing, almost deafening. I had a cut from the bullets shell, it literally ricocheted off of my forehead. It was scary but thank the Lord above it wasn't the bullet. Still doesn't make it any better though. That was the moment I woke up and realized this is not the life for me.

Only a short year later did I find out that I was pregnant with my first (my Angel in heaven). I was young but still I felt like maybe now my life would have purpose. I was excited to be becoming a  mother. Just as soon as I found out I felt like it had been ripped from me. The hardest thing to experience. I went on working and still spending quality time with my honey. I knew he was the man that I wanted to marry. Some may think "you were too young to know what you wanted", but child let me tell, "when you know you know".

5 months later I learned that God had given me another chance to be a mom. I was pregnant with Sariah. I cant lie and say that I was 100% excited because I was scared to death the whole time even up till the day of delivery. I had heard so  many stories about people giving birth and the baby dies. I was horrified. Sep. 08, 2008 was the best day I had ever had. Even though I was in labor for 40 hours I still was excited. It wasn't till a few days later that I would understand the true meaning of being a parent.

Sariah had to go to the hospital for her jaundice and because she was gagging so much when she would sleep. My baby ended up being in the hospital for a week straight, and I never once left her side. That is what being a parent is about. Giving up the things you want for someone else. Protecting and providing that little being with everything in you. I finally knew what I was meant to do. Be some ones mother. I finally felt like my life was complete. I didn't know that only 5 months later I would be pregnant with Kamille. Double the blessing. It was hard I cant lie, but oh so rewarding. Kamille ended up in the hospital as well for jaundice. I didn't leave her side either, even though I had Sariah at home I had to be there with the newborn. Luckily she was only there for 2 days.

I went to school while pregnant with both, but decided that I was going to stay home and put off my dreams for a while. My kids came first before anything and anyone. I can always go back to school was my thought. If anything they would be my motivation to get an education. Kids don't hold you back they push you forward. In 2011 I decided that I would go back to school so I can get my foot in the door in the medical field. I went to UEI for Medical Assistant. I told myself that if I was going to go back to school and put my girls in a daycare, I would succeed with a 4.0 GPA and I would become the mentor of my class. I believe because I had my kids that is why I was able to achieve it all. I became the mentor of the class along with a really good friend, and I graduated with a 4.0 GPA.

My life had meaning now, and I was complete because of my children. It felt good. I didn't know but in 2014 God would give me one more, my last little Logan. When I say that my life has come full circle it really has. I could have ended up with a man that would cheat, beat my ass or even be in jail. Hell or 6 feet under. I thank the Lord for my kids because they allowed me to become a better person. Now when I sacrifice the things I want I know its for a good reason. I don't just have a baby daddy, I have a husband. I don't just have my kids every other weekend. I have them everyday. This is why we decided to move and get away from the area we grew up in. Long Beach will always be the place we grew up, but it isn't home. Home is

where my kids are.

"BOOM" was my wake up call!!!

To my love

I still can smell the air and feel the cold on my body. Walking from room to room waiting to see that face. That moment is so vivid in my mind its like I am there again. Nothing or no one can take those precious moments away. The day I decided that I didn't want anyone else but, you!!!

My dearest pooh bear (yes, I call my hubby that):

My prom 05/05/2007

We have been through so much in this short amount of time, but look how strong we have become. Not a moment has passed that I haven't been grateful God gave us a second chance at love. Most doubted that we would still be here. 7 plus years and we are still going strong. We had a few hiccups along the way, but I believe that is why we are here today. No relationship is perfect and if anyone says that theirs is, I call bullshit. With every fiber of my being I am in absolute love with the man you are. I see you sacrifice your hope and ambitions to make sure that I can attain mine first. You put off going to school for your dream to allow me the opportunity to reach mine. What man would do that? YOU. Now I am not going to pretend that we are always in blissful love, because reality is we have a real marriage. No one is ever 100% happy all the time. I may get on your nerves about your car (your girlfriend) but lord knows you could have a worse hobby (going to the strip club). Just know its not about you loving your car, its about me wanting to spend every extra moment we have together. Today, tomorrow it is never promised, but the right now is the right time to make many memories. When I look back over the years I am so happy that I was able to spend them with you. Look at the three most precious angels God gave us. Our children. I couldn't have asked for a better father. Of course we all have flaws in our parenting but the fact you own up to your mistakes lets me know that becoming a father has made you a better man. I am sure there are a few people that are reading my letter to you and they are thinking " kiss ass Kayleigh", but reality and all bullshit to the side. You Shawn Thomas are the man of my dreams and I cant wait to grow old and grey with you. You are the air that I breath and the beat to my heart. I wouldn't want anyone else.

Our wedding after two beautiful
girls we finally did it
02/24/2011

I have been in relationships that were fake and phony, I am so glad that this one has been different and real. My vow to you is that no matter the past and all the craziness we have been through I promise to love you for you. You and our kids are my family and I would lie down in the street and die for you over and over again, if that means I get to be your wife forever and always. I only pray that at the end of the day I make you as happy as you make me. I see that what matters most to me, matters most to you. My mom is my heart and when things went left for her you (my husband) were the first to say "does she want to move and live with us"? I don't know any man that would do that for their wife. You did and that means the world to me. She isn't your mom but you make sure that she has a ruff over her head because of the situation. If I have never said it before let me say it now "thank you". You are a stand up man and I am glad that Logan will be able to learn how to treat his wife one day (when he is 35, lol)... Our girls Sariah and Kamille will know what type of husband they deserve and wont settle for anything less (when they are over 35, lol).

I love you babe and I am so glad that we made a decision to become one and stick it out no matter what life threw at us. Thank you for making me your wife... Hugs and kisses. I will love you to the moon and back!!!

Even though he cant stand all the people that go to Disneyland/California Adventure
He sucked it up and made the best of it.
Kamilles first time on Tower of Terror.

Love your wife
Kayleigh

Stands for something...

Waking up in the morning is something that we all pray for as we lay our heads down to bed at night. Never expecting anything more than that. We know that tomorrow is never promised, all we have is the "right now", but we still never expect that moment. As I look at my sons face all I can do is thank God for him. We had such a tragic few months before finding out that we were pregnant with this little blessing. We lost two amazing people in our family. One on my side and one on my husbands side.

My message to Richard: Although growing up I thought you were an ass because you seemed to always be angry at the world, you yelled at me, punished me with a toothbrush to wash walls (because I stole money from you and tried to hide it) you meant well. Now that I am a mother I can understand why you did the things that you did. You were only trying to help prepare us for the day we became parents. I am so grateful for that. We had not been air tight, but you were still someone I loved, admired and cared deeply for. I looked up to you. The meaning of what a true man is, a husband, father, son, brother, uncle, nephew, cousin. The list can go on. You were amazing. I am so glad that Sabreena helped me and my mom be able to go to the river, what would be our last summer with you. It is a moment that I will always cherish as will my girls. They loved you and even though I never said it to you, " I loved you too". You stood for what you believed in. You went back to school later in life to fulfill your dreams. You excelled. The day you graduated was a day to always
remember, thank you for having me. No matter what obstacles got in your way, you figured out how to make it to the finish line. With honors at that. You stood for something...

We moved into our new place a few months later and learned that Shawn's granny had passed away. We knew that she had entered the hospital a few weeks earlier and wasn't doing to well. We got to visit her and Shawn got to spend time with her, not believing that it would be his last time. A week later after the funeral we were at home. I could feel that something was different, I wasn't 100% sure, but I knew. I went to Wal-Mart, came home went to the bathroom took a few deep breaths, and waited.... I didn't have to wait long, before I saw... PREGNANT. The test said 5 min before any results, I didn't even wait 30 sec. My head was spinning. I already had a 4 and 3 years old. There was no way.

I was scared as hell to tell my hubby at first because I didn't know how he was going to react. I couldn't keep it from him, so here goes nothing I thought. I went out to the garage and showed him... I don't know if he was happy, sad or mad... It might have been shock. Another baby. After all that our families had just gone through this was a gift from God. There is a saying that when someone gets their wings, God will give back another. I believed that to be true. My original due date happened to be March 30, 2014. Richards birthday.

The months went by and it was time to get ready for my sons birth. I was being induced on March 22, 2014. As I kissed my girls bye and told them "Mommy loves you, and grandma will be back later to bring you to the hospital to see your baby brother", I was nervous, anxious, and excited all in one. I was hungry too, but that's another story. I couldn't help but wonder about the name we had chose. Up until the moment he was born I still hadn't decided if I was going to choose that name we picked from the beginning. I knew his first name and last name, but the middle meant so much to me. I had felt hurt, betrayed and a disconnect with people I loved because of what they thought was my sons name. It had to stand for something...

5:36 pm on March 22,2014 my son entered into this world, a cruel and evil world., but in my arms he was in the safest of places. As I looked at him nothing even mattered. I was blessed and I wanted this moment for just my husband, my mom and myself. I didn't want to share it with anyone other than them because they always support me, and don't judge my actions or choices (not out loud anyways). As my mom left to pick up my girls and my kids God mom, Shawn went to get my food ( I was starving). I spent an hour with him at my breast and was amazed. "I had a son". When I stared at him I  knew no matter what anyone had to say his name would be Logan Richard-Hart Thomas.

A name that stood for something.
Logan: Generally a man of great character, possessed of a fabulous sexual magnetism. Courageous, your quintessential knight-in-shining armor type.
Richard:Tall, almost towering, large features, arms, legs. Beautiful heart. Kind. Although he is able to communicate well, he feels much more deeply than he speaks. Only those that are close to him will ever really know him.  A strong, powerful force, a positive energy, other men are always questioning, "what's so great about Richard?". Spiritual leader.
Hart: the rope, strong
Thomas: its by name means "twin"

I chose this name because to me it meant strong, powerful and roped all the heartache our families went through together. Some may still question why? Its not for them to understand, and am sorry if anyone was hurt or is hurt by my choice to name my son what I did. I love his name and stand firmly behind my choice. Welcome to the world my beautiful boy. May you always follow you heart and
reach for the stars. We love you and are truly blessed to have been given another blessing. My girls

and my son... We are complete. " If you don't stand for something, you'll fall for anything". (side note) A quote that can be heavily disputed as too who first said it. So I wont write any names... You can do your own research. LOL!

Original Baby Carrier: Ergobaby Best Seller Review

Original Baby Carrier

Colors: Black / Camel, Black Exterior with Camel Lining/Hood

Price varies from $115- $195 Depending on the style.

When looking for a baby carrier you aren't only looking for a cute style, you are looking for safety, and comfort for you and the baby. This being my third child I knew what I wanted. I had tried the baby Bjorn (hated it). I tried a baby sling (loved it). The problem with the Bjorn was my baby looked uncomfortable and I felt uncomfortable.  The baby sling had a lot of recalls due to deaths in babies (scary as ever).

Baby insert for your Ergo carrier

Don't let the prices scare you away. Think of it as a investment. Baby wearing is something that people have been doing forever, but it seems as though the last 5 years it has started to become more of a trend. I myself am totally in love.

Now when your baby is first born you are going to want to purchase the infant insert. Don't worry it isn't expensive at all. Only $25 for it if you want just regular, $38 if you must have organic. It is well worth it if you want to baby wear right away. Which I did. With the infant insert there are two stages for weight and age. 0-2 months (7lbs) the babies feet are in like a cocoon. Once they are around 3-4 months their feet are out but, their bottoms are sitting in on the little pillow. (This is all depending on how big your baby is). I stopped using the insert with Logan at 2 months because he was getting too big.

Some will continue using the pillow that is in the insert for what they would call a transition from the insert to just the Ergo alone. I didn't because I felt the Ergo itself was very safe and comfortable for him. To each is own. You make the decision off of you and your babies comfort. I am in absolute heaven with this product, and only wish that I had this when I first became a mom.

I look for any excuse to take Logan out of his car seat so that I can wear my ergo. No lie, it is that comfortable and I feel much safer with him right on my chest. It is easy to put on and adjust to your comfort level. A big plus is that your hubby can wear the baby too. It extends around the waist and the shoulders. So it is a win win all around. You can wear your baby in the Ergo up about 45 lbs. They can be on the front, back or even on your hip.

There are some great videos on YouTube demonstrating how to use the Ergo. Check it out if you are looking for a great carrier. You wont be disappointed. Remember Safety is key as well as comfort. I also think that the Ergo look much better than any other baby carrier. Hope this helps...

Logan in the Ergo about to get his first shots.

 

 

 

 

Early Mornings

 I am imaging the house nice and cold with the aroma of coffee brewing all through as I sleep at night. Praying the night will fly by just so I can have that morning cup of my favorite hazelnut coffee. As I awake the first thing I do after giving my morning kisses to my amazing husband and beautiful children is go straight to my kitchen. Pull out my k-cup insert it, and there you have it. The best cup of coffee ever in life. Okay I am a little dramatic.

Who goes throughout the day wanting it to be morning just so they can have coffee? Me I guess. The morning is my favorite time of day. The birds are chirping, the air is crisp and the sunrises over the earth granting us another day here. "Thank you Lord". Seeing the light on my children's face when they awake to a bright and new day is what I live for. Of course they are wide awake at the crack of dawn. Sitting in their beds with the TV on singing to Sophia Grace and Rosie... It is so cute!

I almost wish that I could get up around 4 am just so that I can have my coffee and enjoy the peace and quit while my beautiful family sleeps. Early Mornings are the best. Not a thing to worry about when I am awake and I see my babies breathing and I have my cup of coffee. Another day to be thankful for....